This weird feeling of longing and discontent is always approaching me unexpectedly, like a strange planet, orbiting around me on its lone ellipse of gravity.

It approaches me always when I am at my happiest, my warmest, my most unprotected. It comes slowly from my back, starting its slide-show while taking my clothes off one by one.

And when I am finally naked and shaking it starts laughing at me, pointing its endless finger at my heart.

This inscrutable feeling is like a withdrawal symptom of some powerful drug. Breaking my bones to shreds.

Drug called FREEDOM.